【弗1:19】并知道他向我们这信的人所显的能力是何等浩大，【Eph1:19】and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength.

这节经文道出了我生命真实的经历。过去的我，不信神，只信自己。This verse sums up my real life story. In the past I didn’t believe in God — only in myself.我以为只要依靠自己的聪明和努力，就能掌控生活的一切。I thought if I just leaned on my own smarts and hard work, I could control everything in life.然而，事实却是家庭破裂、夫妻疏远、亲子隔阂、经济拮据，心中满是苦楚。我的手紧紧抓住“掌控”的权力，却越抓越痛苦。But the truth was a broken family, a distant marriage, tension with my kids, money struggles, and a heart full of pain. I clung to the “power” of control, but the tighter I held on, the more it hurt.直到真理临到，我才真认识自己是个大罪人，需要悔改，Then truth came, and I finally saw myself as a sinner in need of repentance.当我认罪悔改，愿意否定自己、让位给基督时，神的光开始照进我的心。When I confessed and turned back, willing to deny myself and give Christ His place, God’s light began to shine into my heart.

初信之时即蒙恩惠，神把单纯的信心的恩典临到我，简单相信听话照做。When I first believed, grace reached me. God gave me the gift of simple faith — just believing and obeying.当我被牧者责备、纠正时，因着简单的信，选择放下自己，让基督掌权。When my pastor rebuked or corrected me, I chose by that simple faith to let go of myself and let Christ take charge.愿意背起自己的十字架来顺服时，神浩大的能力帮助我胜过极艰难的考试，When I was willing to take up my cross and obey, God’s mighty power carried me through tests that seemed impossible.让我真实的体会这浩大能力背后的神奇力量，使我的信心越发的加增，更多坚定有倚靠祂的心。I came to see the wonder of the great power behind it, and my faith grew stronger, more steady, more reliant on Him.信，更是完全的顺服。不是部分的顺服，也不是条件式的顺服，而是彻底的降服，只愿神的旨意成就。Faith means full obedience — not halfway, not conditional, but surrender, wanting only God’s will to be done.

即使我的想法、我的期待与祂的安排不一样，我也愿意说：“主啊，不是照我的意思，乃是照你的意思。” Even when my thoughts or hopes didn’t match His plans, I still said: “Lord, not my will, but Yours be done.”在这样的顺服里，死就死吧，定意选择爱神不爱自己，我经历到生命的释放，也经历到祂浩大的能力。In that obedience, if it meant death, so be it. Choosing to love God rather than myself, I found freedom and His mighty power.在苦难中，我的信心一次次被试炼。很多时候我觉得走不下去，但正是在那些流泪和挣扎的时刻，我更加看见神的恩典。In suffering, my faith was tested over and over. Many times I felt I couldn’t keep going, but it was in those tears and struggles that I saw God’s grace more clearly.祂让我体会，信不是逃避苦难，而是让苦难成为熬炼信心的熔炉。He showed me faith doesn’t mean escaping suffering, but letting suffering become the furnace that refines faith.每一次坚持信靠，都让我更深地经历到祂的真实。Each time I held on and trusted, I came to know Him more deeply.

信必看见神的荣耀，信心是我生命的起点，也是终点。Faith sees God’s glory. Faith is both theng point and the end point of my life.若不是信，我的生命仍在黑暗里；若不是在苦难中学习信靠，我不可能经历祂的能力，正如经上所说：“义人必因信得生。” Without faith, I’d still be in darkness. Without learning to trust in hardship, I’d never know His power. As Scripture says: “The righteous will live by faith.”每天每时我愿意否定自己，让位给基督，因祂是信心的创始成终者。Every day, every moment, I want to deny myself and let Christ take His place, for He is the pioneer and perfecter of faith.今天我的家庭、夫妻关系、亲子关系能够恢复，不是因为我做成了什么，而是因着信，神的大能成就在我里面。Today, the healing of my family, marriage, and children’s relationship didn’t come through my efforts, but through faith — God’s power worked in me.主啊，你是让我经历死里复活的主，我愿意一生高举基督，靠信而活，以敬畏神为乐，完全顺服，只愿神的旨意成就。Lord, You’re the One who lets me taste resurrection from the dead. I’ll lift up Christ all my life, live by faith, find joy in the fear of God, and fully obey, longing only for Your will to be done.

父啊，我也求你开我的眼睛，光照我信心的盲点，也赐我环境熬炼我信心，本于信，以至于信。Father, please open my eyes too — shine on my blind spots of faith, and give me trials to refine my faith, moving from faith to faith.我愿意进入你摆放在我前面的各样考试，继续我的信心旅程，效法保罗，正如他效法基督的死，经历你所应许的，I want to step into every test You set before me, to keep walking this journey of faith, imitating Paul as he imitated Christ’s death, and experiencing Your promise:这死里复活的大能大力，在耶稣身上没有限量，在任何信的人身上也没有限量。resurrection power and strength, unlimited in Jesus, also unlimited for everyone who believes.凡有的你还要加添，让他更多。To the one who has, You give more.愿你不断提升我信心，天天更多向罪死，向神活，更多经历基督死里复活的大能，一生蒙你悦纳。Keep raising my faith, helping me die to sin each day and live to God, to know more of Christ’s resurrection power, and to live a life pleasing to You.

（郭牧师Pastor Guo）