Lili’s Testimony Lili的见证

Hi everyone, My name is Lili, and I’ve been coming to OTBC for nearly four years now.

大家好，我叫Lili，我来OTBC已经快四年了。

Over those years, I realise I didn’t really treasure building a close relationship with God.

这些年来，我意识到自己其实并没有真正珍惜与神建立亲密的关系。

In everyday life, I was still very focused on myself and living in my own strength.

在日常生活中，我仍然非常关注自己，靠自己的力量生活。

Most of the time, I only turned to God when I need my problems to be fixed.

大多数时候，我只有在需要神帮我解决问题时才转向祂。

What surprised me was that I didn’t even recognise this in myself until recently, when God used Sister Weiwei to help me see what was really going on in my heart.

让我惊讶的是，直到最近神使用Weiwei姐妹帮助我看见自己心里真实的光景时，我才意识到这一点。

I always thought there was nobody I needed to forgive.

我一直以为没有什么人是我需要饶恕的。

I believed people had treated me well.

我觉得别人都对我很好。

But later I realised that when certain things happened, I actually did feel hurt and upset inside.

但后来我意识到，当某些事情发生时，其实我里面是有受伤和难过的。

After a while, I would forget about those situations, so I never thought about bringing them before God in prayer or forgiving anyone.

过了一段时间，我就会忘记那些事情，所以我从来没有想过要在祷告中把它们带到神面前，也没有想过要饶恕任何人。

Last year during the English classes, everyone else could attend except me.

去年英文课的时候，其他人都可以参加，只有我不能参加。

I was deeply upset and cried for several days.

我心里非常难过，哭了好几天。

My face even became dry and sore from crying.

我的脸甚至因为哭得太多，变得又干又疼。

But God didn’t take away my opportunity to study.

但神并没有拿走我学习的机会。

When the new school year started in February 2026, God made a way for me and opened the door for me to study.

当2026年2月新学年开始时，神为我开了一条路，也为我打开了学习的门。

Praise the Lord!

赞美主！

On 6 March 2026, after coming home from school, I made up my mind to follow Pastor Jane’s Bible study prayer recording and pray through it properly.

2026年3月6日，我从学校回家后，下定决心要跟着Jane牧师查经的祷告录音，好好地完整祷告一遍。

The recording was only about six or seven minutes long.

这个录音只有大约六七分钟。

I told myself, “Today I must stay awake and pray right through.”

我对自己说：“今天我一定要保持清醒，从头到尾祷告完。”

But when I got home and knelt down to pray, I fell asleep in less than a minute. I simply couldn’t control it.

但当我回到家跪下来祷告时，不到一分钟就睡着了。我根本控制不了。

Later, the Holy Spirit reminded me that before praying, I should first rebuke the spirit of sleepiness and command every dark power to leave in the name of Jesus, breaking every scheme of the enemy.

后来，圣灵提醒我，在祷告之前，我应该先斥责昏睡的灵，并奉耶稣的名命令一切黑暗权势离开，破除仇敌一切的诡计。

After that, I continued praying along with the recording.

之后，我继续跟着录音祷告。

Each time I could stay awake a little longer.

每一次我都能多保持清醒一会儿。

Each time I became more alert.

每一次我也变得更加清醒警觉。

Eventually, even though the recording was only six minutes long, I ended up kneeling there and praying for more than two hours.

最后，虽然录音只有六分钟，但我跪在那里祷告了两个多小时。

By the final time through, I wasn’t sleepy at all and could pray through the whole recording clearly. Thank You, Holy Spirit!

到最后一次的时候，我一点都不困了，也能清楚地把整个录音祷告完。感谢圣灵！

Before that prayer time, I had been talking with Sister Jing.

在那次祷告之前，我一直在和Jing姐妹聊天。

We talked about how, when I was a child, my grandmother had used some practices connected with healing and witchcraft to treat my sicknesses.

我们谈到我小时候，奶奶曾经用一些与治病和巫术有关的做法来医治我的病。

Even after I became an adult, got married, and had children, I still didn’t think there was anything wrong with it.

甚至在我长大成人、结婚、生了孩子之后，我仍然不觉得这有什么问题。

Sister Jing told me, “You also need to forgive your grandmother.”

Jing姐妹告诉我：“你也需要饶恕你的奶奶。”

At the time, I replied, “But she didn’t hurt me. She was trying to help me.”

当时我回答说：“可是她没有伤害我。她是在想办法帮助我。”

Looking back now, I realise how spiritually blind I was then.

现在回头看，我才意识到那时的自己在属灵上是多么瞎眼。

Even so, I listened to the advice I was given.

即便如此，我还是听从了别人给我的建议。

During those two hours of prayer on 6 March, led by the Holy Spirit, I prayed a prayer of forgiveness for my grandmother for the very first time.

在3月6日那两个小时的祷告中，在圣灵的引导下，我第一次为我的奶奶作了饶恕的祷告。

After praying, my heart was filled with joy.

祷告之后，我的心充满了喜乐。

I messaged Sister Rebecca, had something simple to eat, and then went to work.

我给Rebecca姐妹发了信息，简单吃了点东西，然后就去上班了。

Then something amazing happened that weekend, on 8 March.

然后在那个周末，3月8日，发生了一件奇妙的事。

My younger sister — who would never normally contact me first — suddenly started sending me photos.

我的妹妹——平时从来不会主动联系我——突然开始给我发照片。

She sent travel photos, selfies, and photos of what she was eating and doing.

她发来了旅行照片、自拍照，还有她吃什么、做什么的照片。

These messages came through shortly after the Sunday service started.

这些信息是在主日崇拜开始后不久发来的。

That day, my sister and I had such a warm and close conversation.

那一天，我和妹妹有了一次非常温暖、亲近的交流。

Since February 2019, we had never been this close.

自从2019年2月以来，我们从来没有这么亲近过。

Even though we live far apart, I felt our hearts had become close again.

虽然我们住得很远，但我感觉我们的心又重新亲近了。

At the time, I was simply happy.

当时，我只是单纯地感到开心。

Later, I realised this was the fruit of forgiveness.

后来，我才意识到这是饶恕所结出的果子。

Then last Tuesday, on 20 May, while I was sharing my testimony with a new sister at church, I suddenly realised: this is the power of forgiveness.

然后上周二，5月20日，当我在教会和一位新来的姐妹分享我的见证时，我突然意识到：这就是饶恕的能力。

Mark 11:25–26, “And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins. But if you do not forgive others, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your sins.” Amen!

可 11:25–26 “你们站着祷告的时候，若想起有人得罪你们，就当饶恕他，好叫你们在天上的父也饶恕你们的过犯。你们若不饶恕人，你们在天上的父也不饶恕你们的过犯。”阿们！

On the same day, 20 May, I saw Raymond post a message in the group chat inviting people to share testimonies at the BBQ gathering.

同一天，5月20日，我看到Raymond在群聊里发了一条信息，邀请大家在烧烤聚会中分享见证。

I immediately felt that I should write this testimony.

我立刻觉得我应该写下这个见证。

But I delayed it for a whole week.

但我拖延了整整一个星期。

During that week, God especially blessed me.

在那一周里，神特别祝福了我。

He moved my boss’s heart and arranged the perfect work roster for me.

祂感动了我老板的心，为我安排了最合适的工作排班。

On Monday, I could attend the Baking group.

星期一，我可以参加烘焙小组。

On Tuesday, I could attend English class.

星期二，我可以参加英文课。

On Thursday, I could attend Bible study.

星期四，我可以参加查经。

On Friday, I could attend the sisters’ fellowship.

星期五，我可以参加姐妹团契。

And on Sunday, I could still attend church.

而且星期天，我仍然可以去教会。

If God hadn’t personally arranged this for me, how could I possibly work and still attend every gathering?

如果不是神亲自为我安排这一切，我怎么可能一边工作，还能参加每一个聚会呢？

Yet even then, I still didn’t write this testimony.

然而即便这样，我还是没有写下这个见证。

Then suddenly my face became swollen, and I lost my sense of smell again.

然后，我的脸突然肿了起来，也再次失去了嗅觉。

Deep in my heart, I kept sensing the Holy Spirit reminding me:

在我心里深处，我一直感觉圣灵在提醒我：

“You need to forgive.”

“Necesitas perdonar.”

“你需要饶恕。”

But I didn’t obey.

但我没有顺服。

Then on Sunday, as I drove into the church car park, my wheel hit the kerb.

然后到了星期天，当我开车进教会停车场时，车轮撞到了路边石。

Suddenly there was a loud bang — my tyre burst with a large hole in it.

突然“砰”的一声巨响——我的轮胎爆了，还破了一个很大的洞。

At that moment, I knew God was speaking to me again.

那一刻，我知道神又在对我说话。

Not because He didn’t love me.

不是因为祂不爱我。

Actually, it was because He loves me.

事实上，是因为祂爱我。

God disciplines me so I can recognise my sin and learn to obey the prompting of the Holy Spirit.

神管教我，是为了让我能认出自己的罪，并学习顺服圣灵的提醒。

The moment the tyre burst, I suddenly realised that I also have a sinful nature. I was not as good as I had imagined myself to be.

轮胎爆掉的那一刻，我突然意识到自己也有罪性。我并不像自己想象的那么好。

I began to understand that it wasn’t only other people who were wrong — I was wrong too.

我开始明白，不只是别人有错——我自己也有错。

As I truly began to receive the forgiveness of Jesus in my own heart, and started forgiving those whom I felt had hurt me, no longer holding tightly onto the faults of others, I began to genuinely repent.

当我真正开始在自己心里领受耶稣的饶恕，并开始饶恕那些我觉得曾经伤害过我的人，不再紧紧抓住别人的过错时，我也开始真正地悔改。

Then my sense of smell slowly started returning.

然后，我的嗅觉慢慢开始恢复。

I could smell things again.

我又能闻到气味了。

I believe darkness was driven away, and the Holy Spirit brought healing and restoration to my sense of smell.

我相信黑暗被赶出去了，圣灵也给我的嗅觉带来了医治和恢复。

Thank You, Lord, for choosing me.

主啊，感谢祢拣选了我。

Thank You, Lord, for leading me all the way.

主啊，感谢祢一路引导我。

Thank you to my pastor.

感谢我的牧师。

Thank you to every brother and sister who has helped me.

感谢每一位帮助过我的弟兄姐妹。

May all glory, honour, and praise belong to our Lord Jesus Christ forever! Amen.

¡Que toda la gloria, el honor y la alabanza pertenezcan a nuestro Señor Jesucristo para siempre! Amén.

愿一切荣耀、尊贵和赞美都永远归给我们的主耶稣基督！阿们。