...， 把自己放在受害者的位置上，只听从自己里面苦毒、自怜、怨恨的声音。
In
the past, I lived in self-centeredness. I saw myself as the victim.
I listened only to the voices of bitterness, self-pity, and resentment within
me.
...
...让他们逢人就夸我有多好，另一边我心里充满了对父母的苦毒和恨，脾气越来越顽劣，一步步地通过各种事折磨我父母，试探他们的底线.
On the one hand, I carefully relied on my academic performance to please them
and let them speak highly of me in fro...