【诗 106:15】「他将他们所求的赐给他们，却使他们的心灵消瘦。」【Psalm 106:15】 “So he gave them what they asked for, but sent a wasting disease upon them.” 其他译本：「他使 them 的心灵陷入枯干。」 Other translations: “He sent leanness into their soul.”

诗篇106篇是在追想民数记第11章的事迹。Psalm 106 is referring back to Numbers 11. 以色列人不满足于上帝所预备的，他们求吃肉并向上帝发怨言。The Israelites were not satisfied with what God had provided; they craved meat and complained against Him. 上帝赐给他们极其丰富的鹌鹑，但当肉还在他们牙齿之间时，严重的瘟疫就降临在他们身上。God gave them quail in abundance, but while the meat was still in their mouths, a severe plague came upon them.

他们确实得到了极度渴望的东西，以为能带给他们满足，却把他们引向了死。They received exactly what they desperately wanted, yet what they thought would satisfy them actually led to death.

他们给那个地方起名叫基博罗·哈塔瓦——意为「贪欲之墓」——因为他们在那里埋葬了那些放纵贪欲的人。They named that place Kibroth Hattaavah—“graves of craving”—because there they buried the people who had given themselves over to their cravings.

NIV译本将此描述为上帝使「消耗性疾病降临在他们身上」，而其他译本则说祂使「心灵枯干」。The NIV describes this as God sending “a wasting disease upon them,” while other translations say He sent “leanness into their soul.”

这幅画面令人震惊：他们的欲望得到了满足，心灵却变得枯干。The picture is striking: their appetites were satisfied, but their souls became lean.

这给了我们一个严肃的属灵警告。This gives us a serious spiritual warning.

我们有可能得到了自己极度想要的东西，但在属灵上却变得极其枯干。It is possible to gain what we desperately want and yet become spiritually lean.

有时我们以为，只要得到自己想要的，就会很快乐。Sometimes we assume that if we get what we want, we will be happy.

但诗篇106篇提醒我们，得到自己想要的，并不等于得到了对自己最好的。But Psalm 106 reminds us that getting what we want is not always the same as receiving what is best for us.

我们可能得到了世人说的好东西，却失去了心灵的平安和喜乐。We can gain what we want from a worldly point of view while losing what our souls truly need.

我们的欲望变成了偶像，使我们不再对赐生命的上帝存依靠的信心。Our desires can become idols, taking the place of our trust in God, the Giver of life.

主耶稣向我们显明了一条更美的道路。Jesus shows us a better way.

在客西马尼园，祂祷告说：「不要成就我的意思，只要成就你的意思。」（路加福音 22:42）。 In Gethsemane, He prayed, “Not my will, but yours be done” (Luke 22:42).

当我们坦诚地将私欲交托给上帝，并信祂的道路高过我们的道路，我们就会进入真正的自由。True freedom comes when we bring our desires honestly to God and believe that His ways are higher than ours.

祂的旨意会带领我们走向医治和完全。His will leads us to healing and wholeness.

当我们顺服祂的旨意时，就进入造物主的平安、力量和喜乐。 When we surrender to Him, we share in our Master’s peace, strength, and joy.

因此，我们该祷告的不是「主啊，赐给我想要的」而是： So perhaps we should change our prayers from “Lord, give me what I want” to:「主啊，赐给我能让我更亲近你的事物。 “Lord, give me what will draw me closer to You.

如果我所渴望的不是你对我最好的预备，求你帮助我放下。If what I desire is not Your best for me, help me to let it go.

我宁愿拥有一个被你充满的心灵，也不愿拥有一个装满了“私欲—我想要”的人生。     I would rather have a soul that is full of You than a life full of things I wanted.”

祷告Prayer

主啊，赦免我曾多次如此强烈地想要某些东西，以至于我的心灵变得枯干，充满了焦虑、愤怒、失望甚至是绝望，我信了自己，却没有信你改变我生命的伟大计划。 Lord, forgive me for the times I have wanted something so strongly that my soul became lean, filled with anxiety, anger, disappointment, and even hopelessness, and I trusted myself rather than Your great plan to transform my life. 你了解我的欲望，但你也知道什么对我的心灵最好。You know my desires, but You also know what is best for my soul.

求你教导我信靠你的主权、你的智慧、你的良善以及你的时辰。Teach me to trust Your sovereignty, Your wisdom, Your goodness, and Your timing.

主耶稣，教导我像你那样祷告：「不要成就我的意思，只要成就你的意思。」 Jesus, teach me to pray as You prayed: “Not my will, but Yours be done.”

偏离你而跟随自己的欲望会让我背离生命，但你的旨意会带领我进入永生、平安和喜乐。Following my own desires apart from You leads me away from life, but Your will leads me into eternal life, peace, and joy.

愿我最大的渴望就是认识你、讨你喜悦，并遵行你的旨意。May my greatest desire be to know You, please You, and walk in Your will. 我宁愿拥有更少的东西，却是被你大大的充满，也不愿得到我想要的一切却变成心灵枯干。I would rather have less and have a soul that is full of You than have everything I want and become lean in my soul.

无论你应允我的祷告、或说不可以，还是让我等待，我都愿意全心信靠你，因在你里面就是满足。Whether You say yes, no, or wait, I can trust You and remain satisfied in You.

奉耶稣的名，阿门。In Jesus’ name, Amen.

（叶牧师 Pastor Jane）