【诗78:34】祂杀他们的时候，他们才求问祂，回心转意，切切地寻求神。【Psalm 78:34】Whenever God slew them, they would seek him; they eagerly turned to him again.

《诗篇》78篇也是一首历史回顾诗。亚萨回顾了以色列人在旷野的历程：Psalm 78 is also a psalm that looks back over Israel’s history. Asaph recalls the journey of the Israelites through the wilderness: 神行神迹拯救他们，在干渴饥饿中赐下吗哪和鹌鹑；他们吃饱喝足后，却转身忘记神，抱怨、试探，甚至想回埃及重新做奴隶。God performed miracles to rescue them and provided manna and quail when they were thirsty and hungry; yet once they had eaten and were satisfied, they turned away and forgot God, complained, tested Him, and even wanted to return to Egypt and become slaves again. 神发怒，用瘟疫、火蛇与外敌的杀戮来管教他们——即“祂杀他们（让肉体、财产受亏损、被击打）的时候”。 God became angry and disciplined them through plagues, fiery serpents, and attacks from foreign enemies—that is, “when He slew them” (when they were struck and suffered loss in their bodies and possessions). 直到面临死亡和绝境时，他们才突然醒悟，拼命呼求神，而神动了怜悯之心，再次拯救他们。Only when they came face to face with death and had nowhere else to turn did they suddenly wake up and cry out desperately to God. Then God was moved with compassion and rescued them once again.

亚萨不只是在陈述历史，他更是用这个“才”字，在精准地剖析人性的本质：只有在审判和管教临到、生死存亡的关头，人在急难时才愿意低下头，去切切寻求神；平安时转身就走。Asaph was not simply retelling history. Through the word “then”, he was exposing the true nature of the human heart with great precision: it is often only when judgement and discipline come, and when people face a matter of life and death, that they are willing in their distress to bow down and earnestly seek God; when life is peaceful, they turn away. 神完全看透了我们的丑陋人性：功利、顽梗、健忘、非逼到绝路不回头，但祂依然愿意，在我们动机不纯的呼求中，赐下怜悯。这份怜悯，实在是令人震撼的恩典。God sees our fallen nature completely: self-serving, stubborn, forgetful, and unwilling to turn back until we have reached the end of ourselves. Yet He is still willing to show mercy even when our motives in crying out to Him are not pure. That mercy is truly astonishing grace.

扪心自问：我不也是这样的人吗？在还有健康、财产，日子还勉强过得去时，对神漫不经心；一旦被训、被压得厉害，倒霉、生病、走投无路了才悔改。“神啊，只要祢救我度过这一关，我以后一定……” When I honestly examine myself, am I not exactly the same? While I still have my health and possessions, and life is still manageable, I am careless towards God. Only when I am disciplined, severely pressured, struck by misfortune, made ill, or left with nowhere else to turn do I repent. “God, as long as You bring me through this crisis, from now on I will surely…” 我们急切地是，只想让神赶紧拿走眼前的痛苦。可痛苦一走，又故态复萌，重蹈覆辙。主啊！我向祢献上感恩，若不是祢无尽的忍耐和恩典，我早就在自己的悖逆中灭亡了。What we urgently want is simply for God to take away the pain in front of us as quickly as possible. Yet once the pain is gone, we return to our old ways and repeat the same mistakes. Lord! I give You thanks. Without Your endless patience and grace, I would have perished long ago in my own rebellion.

难道非要等到神不得不借着环境的“管教”，来为我旧人的惯性踩刹车时，我才愿意停下来吗？罗2:5 警戒说：“你竟任着你刚硬不悔改的心，为自己积蓄忿怒，以致神震怒，显祂公义审判的日子来到。” Must I really wait until God has to use the “discipline” of my circumstances to put the brakes on the old patterns of my sinful nature before I am willing to stop? Romans 2:5 warns: “But because of your hardness and your unrepentant heart, you are storing up wrath against yourself for the day of God’s wrath, when His righteous judgement will be revealed.”

主啊，我不要再走同样的路，陷入得罪祢的循环。求祢帮助我，当圣灵在我心中用微小的声音提醒、责备、催促我饶恕和悔改时，不要硬着心肠，不要拖延！Lord, I do not want to keep going down the same road or remain trapped in a cycle of sinning against You. Please help me, when the Holy Spirit quietly reminds, corrects, and urges me to forgive and repent, not to harden my heart or put it off! 而是对祢的爱、对祢的呼唤有迅速的回应，即刻来到祢的面前，倾心吐意，承认我的过犯。因为祢已应许：“我们若认自己的罪，神是信实的，是公义的，必要赦免我们的罪，洗净我们一切的不义。”（约一 1:9）Instead, may I respond quickly to Your love and Your call, come before You straight away, pour out my heart, and confess my transgressions. For You have promised: “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)

主啊，我愿全心回转，不只是在患难中才被迫寻求祢，更要在平安稳妥的日子里，不要忘记自己的本相，记住祢的管教、赦免，常常感恩。Lord, I am willing to turn back to You with all my heart. I do not want to seek You only when suffering forces me to do so. Even in peaceful and secure seasons, may I not forget what I am truly like, but remember Your discipline and forgiveness and remain thankful. 求祢帮我操练一颗切切寻求的心，保持对祢话语与圣灵的敏锐。求祢将敬畏祢的心重新放在我里面，使我无论在顺境或逆境，都不偏离祢的道路——不是因为害怕管教，而是因为爱祢。Please help me develop a heart that earnestly seeks You and stays sensitive to Your Word and to the Holy Spirit. Please place the fear of You within me again, so that whether life is going well or I am facing hardship, I will not turn away from Your path—not because I am afraid of discipline, but because I love You.

（刘姊妹 Sister Liu）