【诗81:10】我是耶和华你的神，曾把你从埃及地领上来。你要大大张口，我就给你充满。【Psa 81:10】I am the Lord your God,who brought you up out of Egypt.Open wide your mouth and I will fill it.

《诗篇》81篇一开场，百姓击鼓、弹琴、大声欢呼、吹响羊角，好不热闹！全城似乎都沉浸在一派节日的喜庆与火热里。然而，这种外在的宗教礼仪，却根本掩盖不了选民内在的背道与荒凉。Psalm 81 begins with the people beating drums, playing instruments, shouting for joy, and sounding the ram’s horn. The whole city seems caught up in the celebration and excitement of the festival. Yet all this outward religious activity could not hide the inward backsliding and desolation of God’s chosen people.百姓一面在圣殿里守着严肃会，一面却在生活中开小差、拜外邦的假神、肆无忌惮地干犯神的诫命。While they were keeping a solemn assembly in the temple, in everyday life they were distracted, worshipping the false gods of the surrounding nations and openly disobeying God’s commandments.

从第6节开始，百姓喧闹的声音被神强行打断，神突然用第一人称“我”直接说话。祂硬生生把这群狂欢的人拉回出埃及的历史中，并在第10节发出了最伟大的应许：“我是耶和华你的神，曾把你从埃及地领上来；你要大大张口，我就给你充满。” From verse 6 onwards, God abruptly interrupts the noise of the people and begins speaking directly in the first person: “I”. He firmly draws this celebrating crowd back to the history of the Exodus and, in verse 10, gives this great promise: “I am the Lord your God, who brought you up out of Egypt. Open wide your mouth, and I will fill it.”

神在严厉中带着无尽的慈爱劝诫他们：只要他们听从神的话，除掉外邦的偶像，神那无尽的祝福——无论是物质还是属灵的——都必将他们彻底喂饱。作神草场上的羊，根本不需要去向这个世界乞讨！With both severity and endless love, God urges them to listen to His voice and remove every foreign idol. If they do, His abundant blessings—both material and spiritual—will fully satisfy them. As sheep in God’s pasture, they do not need to beg anything from this world!

主啊，当我看完了以色列人的历史，祢的话语就变成了一面镜子，直接照出我灵魂深处的丑陋与匮乏。主啊，既然祢是信实且丰富的主，为什么我的心那么穷？我的生活如此贫乏？为什么很多事情我都搞不定？Lord, after reading the history of the Israelites, Your Word has become a mirror, clearly revealing the ugliness and emptiness deep within my soul. Lord, since You are faithful and abundant, why is my heart so poor? Why does my life feel so barren? Why can I not manage so many things?为什么我感觉处处受阻、到处有人跟我作对？甚至连孩子和配偶都不听我的？祢不是应许要拿上好的麦子和磐石的蜂蜜叫我们饱足吗(16节)？Why do I feel blocked at every turn, as though people are always against me? Why do even my children and spouse refuse to listen to me? Did You not promise to satisfy us with the finest wheat and honey from the rock (verse 16)?

在百般愁苦中，我曾自以为义地想：我也没有去庙里拜假神啊！我也常常去教会，赞美敬拜时,我也大声欢呼，就像当年的以色列人一样，拿着乐器、照着律法的规定按时打卡。In the midst of all my sorrow, I once thought self-righteously: I have not gone to temples to worship false gods! I also go to church regularly, and during praise and worship I shout aloud, just like the Israelites of old, holding instruments and turning up at the appointed times according to the law.可是在隐秘处，我是不是也存着和他们一模一样的诡诈？我以为只要参加了聚会、读了经、唱了歌、服事了，就算“搞定了神”！ Yet in secret, do I not carry exactly the same deceit within me? I thought that as long as I attended church, read the Bible, sang songs, and served, I had somehow “sorted things out with God”!我把祢当成了可以交易的偶像，认为只要我做足了宗教的仪式，祢就理所当然应该祝福我的学业、工作、签证、婚姻和生意，就必须让我凡事顺利、心想事成……I treated You like an idol with whom I could make a deal, believing that if I performed enough religious duties, You should naturally bless my studies, work, visa, marriage, and business, and make everything go smoothly and turn out exactly as I wished…

主啊，祢是信实的主，祢的话语绝不徒然返回！祢怎么说就怎么成就。Lord, You are faithful, and Your Word never returns empty! Whatever You say will surely come to pass.今天我终于醒悟过来：不是祢的话语失效了，而一定是我出问题了！求圣灵鉴察我、光照我：在平时的日常生活里，我的耳朵喜欢听什么？我的眼睛喜欢看什么？我的心到底在爱什么？拜什么？Today I have finally woken up: it is not that Your Word has failed; the problem must be with me! Holy Spirit, please search me and shine Your light on me: in my everyday life, what do my ears enjoy listening to? What do my eyes enjoy watching? What does my heart truly love? What does it worship?

甚至在教会听完道、敬拜完，我一走出教会，就把祢抛诸脑后。Even after hearing a sermon and worshipping in church, as soon as I walk out, I push You to the back of my mind.我该干什么还干什么：一不顺自己的心，嘴里就吐出脏话恶言，肆意咒骂人；整天疯狂刷着短视频，甚至躲在黑暗里看色情小说，用污秽的幻想来麻醉自己。I carry on doing whatever I want: whenever something does not go my way, filthy and cruel words come out of my mouth, and I freely curse others. I spend all day endlessly scrolling through short videos, and I even hide in darkness to read pornographic novels, numbing myself with impure fantasies.

主啊！在日常生活里，我最看重的根本不是祢的话，而是我在人面前的荣耀与面子！我看不得别人好，里面塞满了比较、嫉妒与恶毒的争竞。Lord! In my everyday life, what I value most is not Your Word, but my own glory and reputation in front of others! I cannot bear to see others doing well, and my heart is full of comparison, jealousy, and malicious rivalry.别人住大房子，我也想要；别人有钱，我也想发财。我整天朝思暮想的就是，如何得着世上的好处，升职发财。When others live in large houses, I want one too; when others have money, I also want to become wealthy. All day long, I keep thinking about how to gain the advantages of this world, get promoted, and make money.我的行事为人、心思意念跟不信的人没有任何区别！我关上了吃祢话、向祢祷告的嘴，却向这个世界的财富、情欲、虚荣“大大张口”！The way I live, think, and desire is no different from those who do not believe! I have closed my mouth to feeding on Your Word and praying to You, yet I have “opened wide my mouth” towards the wealth, lusts, and vanity of this world!

主啊，求祢赦免我假冒为善！我嘴上说敬畏祢，我的心却远离你，心思意念在世上的情欲骄傲里周游。今天我向祢彻底认罪、撕碎伪装。Lord, please forgive my hypocrisy! My lips say that I fear You, but my heart is far from You, and my thoughts wander through the lust and pride of this world. Today I confess my sins fully before You and tear away every disguise.求祢在我生命的废墟中揪出我里面一切隐藏的假神，打碎我功利主义的信仰。不仅拯救我脱离外在的失败，更拯救我脱离这污秽、可怕的罪恶！Please search through the ruins of my life, expose every hidden idol within me, and shatter my transactional faith. Do not only save me from outward failure, but save me from this filthy and terrible sin!求祢重新得着我的心，让我单单渴慕祢，向祢“大大张口”， 单单要祢，一生追求，要被祢真理的仁义和圣洁完全充满！Please take hold of my heart again, so that I may long for You alone, “open wide my mouth” to You, desire You alone, pursue You throughout my life, and be completely filled with the righteousness and holiness of Your truth!

（陈弟兄 Raymond Chan）