【诗89:14】公义和公平是祢宝座的根基；慈爱和诚实行在祢前面。Psalm 89:14 Righteousness and justice are the foundation of your throne; love and faithfulness go before you.

“宝座”代表神统管万有的最高主权。地上的政权常因虚假与利益而改朝换代，但神永恒的宝座之所以仇敌砸不碎、摇不动、无可控告，是因为它的基石是绝对的“公义”与“公平”。“Throne” represents God’s highest sovereignty over all things. Earthly governments often rise and fall because of falsehood and self-interest, but God’s eternal throne cannot be shattered by the enemy, shaken, or accused because its foundation is absolute “righteousness” and “justice”.这里的“诚实”在原文中是“信实/真理（Emet）”，“慈爱”则是如死之坚强的“盟约之爱（Hesed）”。神只要一显现，无论是伸出管教的鞭子，还是降下旷野的吗哪，在审判显现之前，祂的慈爱与信实早已作为先锋，率先走过来拥抱并环绕了我们。Here, “truth” in the original language is “faithfulness/truth” (Emet), while “steadfast love” is the “covenant love” (Hesed) that is as strong as death. Whenever God appears, whether He stretches out the rod of discipline or sends down manna in the wilderness, before judgement is revealed, His steadfast love and faithfulness have already gone ahead as forerunners, coming first to embrace and surround us.

 主啊，感谢祢。初信之时，祢让慈爱和诚实行在前面，先拥抱、医治了我，将我从污秽与情欲的捆绑中释放出来。Lord, thank You. When I first believed, You allowed steadfast love and faithfulness to go before me, first embracing and healing me, and setting me free from the bondage of impurity and lust.后来，因私欲牵引，已经洗白的我，再次选择了泥坑。因罪我与祢隔绝，受了许多苦楚。后来，我受够了苦，立定心志回转向祢。犯罪-回转-又犯罪-再回转，这样的情况反复多年。Later, drawn away by my selfish desires, I, who had already been washed clean, chose the mud pit again. Because of sin, I became separated from You and suffered deeply. Later, when I had suffered enough, I resolved to turn back to You. Sinning, turning back, sinning again, and turning back again—this pattern repeated for many years.当我再一次认罪悔改后，我本以为环境就会立刻变好。然而，迎来的却是金钱的亏损、身体的软弱，以及人的践踏与藐视。我满心困惑忧闷：“主啊，我不是悔改了吗？怎么还这么惨？” After I once again confessed my sins and repented, I thought my circumstances would improve straight away. Yet what came instead was financial loss, physical weakness, and being trampled on and despised by others. My heart was full of confusion and heaviness: “Lord, have I not repented? Why am I still suffering like this?”

 在寻求中，我明白，这是罪的果子。并不是神没有赦免我，而是罪所带来的后果仍然存在。神已经藉着基督赦免了我的罪，却仍按祂的公义管教我，使我学习敬畏祂。As I sought You, I came to understand that this was the fruit of sin. It was not that God had not forgiven me, but that the consequences of sin still remained. God had already forgiven my sins through Christ, yet He still disciplined me according to His righteousness, so that I might learn to fear Him.主啊，祢是公平公义的神。祢不看人的嘴巴，祢要看到与悔改之心相称的诚实果子。祢看透我的内心：虽然口里痛悔，但一遇环境，就陷入自怜、怨人，甚至报复性地走回头路。Lord, You are a God of justice and righteousness. You do not look at what people say with their mouths; You look for sincere fruit that matches a repentant heart. You see right through my heart: although I say I am broken and repentant, as soon as circumstances arise, I fall into self-pity, resentment towards others, and even retaliatory backsliding.这实在是我真实的光景。我愿降伏在你审判台前。我看见，以色列民也如此不敬畏神，以至被管教遭灾遭难。大卫虽然犯罪跌倒，却始终存着忧伤痛悔的心，不轻看自己的罪，不断回转归向神。This is truly my real condition. I am willing to surrender before Your judgement seat. I see that the Israelites also lacked the fear of God in this way, and so they were disciplined and went through disaster and suffering. Although David sinned and fell, he always kept a broken and contrite heart, did not treat his sin lightly, and kept turning back to God.

 我思想以色列民的路，又思想大卫的路。主，祢使我受苦实在是以诚实待我。祢揭露我忘恩作恶的本相。I reflect on the path of the Israelites, and I also reflect on the path of David. Lord, in allowing me to suffer, You have truly dealt with me in faithfulness. You have exposed my true condition of ingratitude and evil.我所遭遇实在应得，祢断乎不以有罪的为无罪。祢在十架为我舍命，到死都不走开，这爱如死之坚强。管教绝不等于抛弃，是为了除罪。What I have experienced is truly what I deserve, and You will by no means clear the guilty. You gave Your life for me on the cross and did not walk away, even unto death; this love is as strong as death. Discipline is never the same as abandonment; it is for the removal of sin.主我信这环境暂时不改变，是因为我的罪仍需要被祢的公义对付，这背后隐藏的都是祢的慈爱和诚实，为了让我得着丰盛的生命。Lord, I believe that if my circumstances do not change for now, it is because my sin still needs to be dealt with by Your righteousness. Hidden behind all of this are Your steadfast love and faithfulness, so that I may receive abundant life.

 等候祢的，必不羞愧。当我怀着敬畏日日仰望，尊祢命令而行，到了祢所定的时候，祢必按着祢最美善的旨意成就一切。Those who wait for You will never be put to shame. As I look to You each day with reverent fear and walk according to Your commands, when Your appointed time comes, You will surely accomplish everything according to Your good and perfect will.无论环境是否立刻改变，祢都必使我经历祢够用的恩典，并叫万事互相效力，使爱神的人得益处。Whether or not my circumstances change immediately, You will cause me to experience Your sufficient grace, and You will work all things together for the good of those who love God.我才明白，祢从未离开。最痛苦困惑时，是祢的慈爱在环绕；在严厉管教中，是祢的信实将我托住。Then I came to understand that You had never left me. In the most painful and confusing moments, it was Your steadfast love surrounding me; in severe discipline, it was Your faithfulness holding me up.

 主我感谢祢的不离不弃，祢的杖和杆都安慰我。即便前路仍有高山低谷，即便仍有诸多不明白，我心中依然满有平安与喜乐。Lord, I thank You that You never leave or forsake me. Your rod and Your staff comfort me. Even if the road ahead still has mountains and valleys, and even if there are still many things I do not understand, my heart remains full of peace and joy.因为我知道，祢的公义绝不会错待我，祢的慈爱绝不会离开我，祢的信实直到万代！For I know that Your righteousness will never treat me unfairly, Your steadfast love will never leave me, and Your faithfulness endures to all generations!

（写经团队和李姊妹  Sister Li and the Daily Devotional Team  ）