【诗77:11-12】我要提说耶和华所行的，我要记念祢古时的奇事；我也要思想祢的经营，默念祢的作为。【Psa 77:11-12】I will remember the deeds of the Lord; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago. I will consider all your works and meditate on all your mighty deeds.”

这首诗篇并不是神不听诗人的呼求，而是资深敬拜者亚萨，代表整个以色列民族，把内心深处，在属灵黑夜里的集体绝望向神倾吐。This psalm does not mean that God was refusing to hear the psalmist’s cry. Rather, Asaph, a mature and experienced worshipper, was speaking on behalf of the whole nation of Israel, pouring out before God the shared despair buried deep within their hearts during a season of spiritual darkness.历史上，以色列民是一个极端喜欢抱怨的民族，在旷野，一有任何稍不顺心，就立刻发怨言。Throughout their history, the Israelites were a people deeply prone to complaining. In the wilderness, whenever anything went even slightly wrong, they immediately began to grumble.诗人没有在神面前伪装、掩盖整个以色列民内心的各种挣扎和不信，但就在信心要崩溃的一瞬间，诗人立刻对这种民族的思维惯性踩了刹车，变为感恩，把苦毒埋怨关在心门外。The psalmist did not pretend before God or hide the struggles and unbelief within the hearts of the whole nation. Yet just as his faith was on the verge of collapse, he immediately brought this deeply ingrained national pattern of thinking to a halt, turned towards thanksgiving, and shut bitterness and complaint outside the door of his heart.

神使诗人突然醒悟：怀疑神的良善，不是神变了，而是以色列民自己对神的认知出问题了。他们习惯了神是那个“一呼即应、立刻撕裂诸天降临”的父，God suddenly awakened the psalmist to this truth: doubting God’s goodness did not mean that God had changed; it meant that Israel’s understanding of Him had become distorted. They had grown used to God being the Father who “answered the moment they called and immediately tore open the heavens and came down”.一旦神“把他们暂时放到一边”，他们就像断了奶的婴儿、迷了路的羊群，瞬间不知所以，惊慌失措。医治信心懦弱的唯一办法，是强迫自己的眼睛从“我的现状”拔出来。Once God “set them aside for a season”, they became like weaned infants and sheep that had lost their way, suddenly confused and overwhelmed with fear. The only way to heal weak and fearful faith is to force our eyes away from “my present circumstances”.他代表以色列民，硬生生把自己的眼睛从“眼前的黑暗”中拔出来，投向历史，开始在记忆里“数点神过去的恩典”。On behalf of the people of Israel, the psalmist deliberately pulled his eyes away from “the darkness before him”, turned them towards history, and began to remember and count God’s past blessings.

当他不再数点自己的痛苦，而是开始默想神的作为时——不再看自己，心里充满的全是神的作为时——诗的后半段突然完全不提“我”了，全部换成了“祢”。When he stopped counting his own pain and began to meditate on God’s works—when he stopped focusing on himself and his heart became completely filled with what God had done—the second half of the psalm suddenly stopped speaking about “I” and became entirely focused on “You”.诗人的心全然被波澜壮阔的神迹充满，当年以色列民被神带领，出埃及、过红海，史诗般壮观场景……力量就不知不觉地进到心里来了。The psalmist’s heart was filled with the grandeur of God’s mighty acts: the epic scenes of Israel being led by God out of Egypt and through the Red Sea… Without him even noticing, strength began to rise within his heart.诗人被带进一条信而得救的出路里，也是对整个民族——他要把全以色列民带回“长子名分”的恩典里。The psalmist was led onto a path of salvation through faith, and this was also for the whole nation—he longed to bring all Israel back into the grace of their birthright as the firstborn.

主啊，我是否也是一个喜欢抱怨的人呢？像以色列民一样，从出埃及到旷野，只要遇到一丁点不顺心——水是苦的、没有肉吃、路不好走——思维惯性永远是立刻发怨言，甚至叫嚣着要回埃及。Lord, am I also someone who is quick to complain? Like the Israelites from the time they left Egypt and entered the wilderness, whenever the smallest thing went wrong—the water was bitter, there was no meat to eat, or the road was difficult—their automatic response was always to grumble immediately and even demand to return to Egypt.那种惯性就像战车下坡一样，顺理成章、势不可挡呢？这是不是我生来就在我里面固有的模式呢？是不是我的家族人人都是这样呢？Is that habit not like a chariot racing downhill, feeling natural and becoming almost impossible to stop? Is this a deeply rooted pattern that has been within me from birth? Is everyone in my family like this?

主啊，诗人借着这节经文，已经给出释放、医治苦毒埋怨的秘诀：就是停住我埋怨苦毒的思维惯性，向“我”死，向神的恩典活，立刻从“我”里面出来，投向神，数算神的恩典。Lord, through this passage, the psalmist has already shown me the key to being set free from and healed of bitterness and complaint: I must stop the automatic cycle of bitter and complaining thoughts, die to “self”, live to the grace of God, immediately come out of “self”, turn towards God, and count His blessings.

借着保罗的祷告：“求祂按着祂丰盛的荣耀，藉着祂的灵，叫我心里的力量刚强起来。”(弗 3:16) Through Paul’s prayer, “I pray that out of His glorious riches He may strengthen me with power through His Spirit in my inner being”. (Ephesians 3:16)主啊，我要起来，数算祢的恩典！求圣灵动工，治死、拆毁我里面一切负面苦毒、抱怨的坚固营垒。Lord, I will rise and count Your blessings! May the Holy Spirit work within me, putting to death and tearing down every stronghold of negativity, bitterness, and complaint.求赐生命圣灵的律，在我感恩、赞美、数算神恩典，思想祢经营，默念祢作为的时候，在基督里释放我，使我脱离旧人罪和死的律——就是那叫我死、充满苦毒和抱怨的律。Please let the law of the Spirit of life operate within me, so that as I give thanks, praise You, count Your blessings, reflect on Your ways, and meditate on Your works, I may be set free in Christ from the law of sin and death in the old self—the law that brings death and fills me with bitterness and complaint.求祢充满我，因着我的信，被祢大大释放，脱离家族罪的权势。使我充满喜乐和盼望。因圣灵的能力大有盼望，天天这样操练，将荣耀颂赞，全然归给祢！Please fill me and, through my faith, powerfully release me from the power of generational sin. Fill me with joy and hope. May I overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit, practise this every day, and give all glory and praise entirely to You!

（陈弟兄 Raymond Chan）